Returning Back to Where I Was

I think it's symbolic that after almost 4 years I am returning back to where I pray to be. I am returning back to my supposed to be secret blog. For those who are following this blog, mainly my students, please visit my previous home -- blog -- where I blog. Post your comments. And keep in touch.

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Aesop's Fables

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Whose friend knows me best.. by Lacey Mosley

Shy, silent type, emo or rocker, cute, that's how people discribe me, sometimes they would even say "you're kind,generous, humble". But behind saying those things, my question is that "do they know me?". I was staring outside the window when I asked myself, am I really me? am I showing the real me? or am I just pretending to be somebody whom I am not . Millions of stars watchin' me cry but nobody's listening to me as I shout. Everything's hidden inside me. Only the starS, trees, pens, papers, books and music instruments knows my hidden emotions. Why can't i bring them out? There are times I am wondering, "how could these things be happening?". Why do I have a lot of friends inspite of not saying everything inside this heart of mine. Who will I blame of being someone I must not be. Am I really showing the real me? These papers and pens around me help me much, these instruments help me bring out the best inside me. I always write, I shout and scream using them. There are times while i'm in a room of white walls with nothing to hear but the tick-tock of the cllock, a question passed my mind "what is pretension?" Am I pretending or am I showing the real me?.

Friends help me much. They have been my relatives for so long. They are my shoulder to lean on. To listen and to watch is are the common jobs of friends. I do have two kinds of friends, my old closest friend and my best friend. I love them both so much, but I am wonderin' who among them both knows me best. My old closest friend. Actually I never called her my best friend because she never wanted to be called so. We've been friends for 4 years and for those years, we've had millions of memories together. We've laugh together and cried beside each other. I can't compare our friendship to anything. We always make time together. With her I cried, her shoulders became my strenght and her voice, advices and messages inspired me. She changed my pessimistic thinking to optimistic mind. We've been in a lot of battle. And it's a miracle we're still together inspite of all the misunderstandings that we had. We've been together for so long and our weakness is our strenght. But i'm still shy to tell her some things. I don't know how we became very much contented having each other and confident together. We always say "Live your life inside a dream".


Rock music, that's what tied me and my best friend. I love rock music because it helps me express my deepest emotions and so he is. In him, I can tell anything but I can't do everything. whatever kind of word I wanted to say can be bring out when I am with him, but I cannot cry when I am with him. I just don't know why. But, he knows a lot of things about me. My Best friend helps me ease my pain and he makes me laugh. There comes a time that I am very much desperate to hear his voice and when that time comes, I just listen to the songs we used to sing, I just can't take him out of my mind. we became best friends because I helped him more than he helped me. When I am with him my whispers turns to shouting and my shouting turns to tears, then after sometime my tears turns to laughter and it will all take away my fears. He tells me his secrets 'cause I want it and i'll listen intensively. That's how we spent our time together. We're living together by saying "Our music will bind us and our friendship will keep us forever.


Millions of memories are treasured inside my heart. My memories with my friends will always live in me. Remembering our unbridled outburst of emotions, deafening me. It paralyzes me knowing I can't choose who's the best. They both know me much, but who's friend knows me best? I love them both and I am very much craving to hear their voice. They gave me a prommise to love and treasure me forever. So I will always keep them. But still my question is not answered, who's friend knows me best? My old closest friend who dreams with me or my best friend who cries and laughhs with me. They both list5en to me and I never wanted to run away from them. I'm feeling so inspired having them. Even if i'm selfish fake, they're still a true friend. I can always come to them. Will I go to my old closest friend who lives life with her perfect words and dreams or will I go to my best friend who lives life the way he wanted it to be, as freely as he can. I can't choose, all that I can think is that I won't say farewell to them. I'll live my life with them, dream my greatest dreams together with them and play my kind of music forever with them.


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"I'm a silent type of person but there are times that i'm very much talkative. I always go to what is majority, I mean I usually go to where my friends go. I usually present myself with eyeliner and my bangs covering my eyes. I love listening to my kind of music, reading novels, watching movies and writing poems. I love music so much, the reason why I can now write my poem. Screamo is the type of music I do listen. Because through this type of music I can shout and scream. For some it was considered noise but for me it's a type of melody that helps me bring out my deepest emotions. It may not have a good background sound for some but if they try to understand the lyrics, the message of the song, they would certainly love it. Reading novels is one of my best past times, because reading helps me improve to whatever knowledge I have now. After reading sometime, i'll write my own poem. Writing is one of the best practices I perform to improve my knowledge. Actually I have my notepad of poems and essays to review how deep and wide my intelligence is. I also love watching it's one of the best past times. Because i'm enjoying at the same time i'm learning. I don't like too much girly stuffs. I hate using shoulder bags. What I like is using backpack and body bag. I sometimes use doll shoes but most of the time I use rubber shoes (chuck taylor). I hate wearing skirt I just use pants. I'm using girly blouses but I use t-shirts more. That's me, a simple person who loves to live my life on how I want it to be." -- Lacey Mosley

Goodbye My Idol by Rostok Vampire

Michael Jackson during a certain era,he is the best performer for me, because he gives inspirations to all people and other performers in music industry. during on his childhood stage,he performed with his brothers with energy and he gives unidentify feelings especially to the people, even me i dont know how to explain the feelings that i feel if he perform.

when i was a child, I think I'm 5 years old that time was my fisrt time to hear the music of Michael Jackson, my first time hear that my respond is to dance all the time and I performed in front of my parents and relatives everyday i request to my mom to play the CD of Michael Jackson "Smooth Criminal". after 10 years,I listening the other songs of Michael Jackson like Billie Jean, Beat it, Thriller, and Bad.I'm very excited when I watching his concert, I'm so surprise when he perform in the stage to sing and to dance and also the special effects that he show to the audiences. During 90's his music are continued and he release 2 albums if I not mistaken, the new single songs that time are Black or White,Heal the world, and remember the time.But after that his music are gone after the controversial
that he involved in sexual chid abuse, for me as a fun I'm not believe to that issue because I know him and I know he can'y do that because he likes children and I know his reasons why he adopting the children.After that his music are gone totally and he face it that issue with strength and determination but all of his sacrifices to face the problems and trials he won in the case.

after a year he is back and he stand again with new lessons of his life so when the time comes in the year 2000 or 2002 he performed again in the stage and gives again another inspiration to all people and he celebrate his 40th anniversary with other performer like Usher, Britney Spears, Whitney Houston, Beyonce, N'Sync, and also Chris Tucker.I saw his face with power and excitement because he felt that all people were not forgot his musics but now he is dead, he is gone to this world but his body was gone but his music is in our hearts and Michael Jackson is hear in my heart and I feel him everytime.He is young when he died he was only 50. However they've been raised and by whom, he's got children. He's also got a big family-- we know the names of many of them and surely they're devastated. Millions of people all over the world have been moved by his music, and a lot of them are suffering right now, missing a piece of their lives, even if it's only one filled with a iconic pop figure. So this is a sad time. But man, and I feel guilty saying this, there's also just the slightest bit of relief: that a life that had always seemed like a lonely, twisted nightmare filled with suffering had finally come to end. What were the chances of him finding perspective after all this time? And, after chasing Thriller’s sales records for so long, making that his artistic and creative aim, what were the chances of him making music he was happy with again? How does a guy who wants to remain a kid forever, who started an endless course of plastic surgeries while still in his twenties, find a way to be a reasonably happy old man? When those comeback shows at O2 were announced earlier this year, I can't be the only one who felt a twinge of something in his gut, a sense that something horrible was going to go down. It was like seeing a friend who is a recovering addicts walking into a bar. People were braced for a train wreck, but not for this.

Take away the music, and Michael Jackson's life is just too sad to contemplate. Which is a very good argument for not taking away the music, ever? We're all going to die someday, too. So let's live. You start with "I Want You Back" and "ABC" and "I'll Be There". You go through the Jackson’s years with "Dancing Machine" and "Can You Feel It", and then a long stop at the incomparable Off the Wall. Jackson sang a small handful of tunes with a legitimate claim as the best pop song of the past 40 years, and "Don't Stop Till You Get Enough" is one of them. Then it's on to "Billie Jean" and "Beat It" and "Thriller" and "Wanna Be Startin' Something", and on through later hits: "Bad", "The Way You Make Me Feel", "Man in the Mirror", "Black or White", "Will You Be There", and sure, why not, "Gone Too Soon". Michael Jackson superhero, cartoon, singer, dancer, supremely troubled dude-- made all this music, and it's amazing.

So now as a fun of him, I'm very thankful to him because he gave me inspiration not only to encourage me to sing but to face all trials in our life whether if we feel so down don't be surrender, be brave and make be feel "bad" in the way of good and "beat it" all the trials in our life and also "don't stop till you get enough" and don't be "smooth criminal" be "Billie Jean" so that you are being a sweet lover and most of all you must "Heal the World" for the peace.


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I am Rostok Vampire, I love to sing and play drums and also i love to drink with my friends.

Happiness by Darkangel

Every individual undergoes different stages of our lives, starting infant to toddler and childhood to teenage years. Well perhaps, I considered teenage years was one of the happiest chapter of my life moreover I learn to be physically, mentally, socially and emotionally developed. In like manner, happiness is what I've gain. Owing those memories from the persons of your life happiness is experienced. Being a teenager doesn’t mean that it is full of great things and good happenings in life. Many of us encountered different types of problems in different kind of situations. But for me, it’s just a part of my life, a challenge that I should overcome and a mission that I must accomplish.Doing all that things helps me to fulfill the empty space in my life and to get the happiness that I’ve been looking for.

Happiness is not gain through material things, position, power or success.Real happiness can be gain through acceptance and peace of mind. It is not a material reward, it is just a consequence. We become happy and contented with one work and life when we give happiness to others. If we will give a little love to them, it will all comes back to us. Happiness is something that cannot be bought even gold or silver, something we should praise of and something we must treasure. It is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, satisfaction, pleasure or joy.

Happiness is described as consisting of positive emotions and positive activities.There are numbers of attributes correlating to happiness such as relationships, social interactions, health, democratic freedom, optimism, religion or any involvement. It forms as a central theme and a state of ultimate freedom for suffering and everlasting peace which can only be achieved by overcoming craving in all forms. It is the end of human existence with God’s essence in the next life. Meanwhile some researchers found that fifty percent of ones happiness depends on ones genes and the remaining percentage is a combination of factors that are results of actions that individual engage for the purpose of being happy.

I think I should never let go of my dreams until I am ready to wake up and make it happen. Trials or chances in life are not meant to make us fall but to see how far wecan fly. Those chances won’t wait for us forever. If we will let everything pass us buy we will never find out how beautiful life can really be. We should not be afraid to get hurt because if we don’t risk something we will never gain anything. Happiness is the best memory that we can receive or achieve in our lives. Our life has so many great options but we don’t have to pick always what seems to be the best. We just have to pick whatever makes us really happy and it will be the best and the perfect choice. It’s easier to be happy if we can look beyond the imperfections rather than by trying to make everything perfect.

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Darkangel is nice, thoughtful, obedient but sometimes naughty. She always wants everyone to be happy because for her, being happy can take away all the loneliness in our lives.

Freedom by hard2get

When you love someone, you love him as he is. I alone am perfect it is probably for that reason. That I know what perfection is. And that I demand less perfection of those poor people. I know how difficult it island how often, when they are struggling in their trials, how often do I wish and am I tempted to put my hand under their stomachs. In order to hold them up with my big hand. Just like a father teaching his son how to swim. In the current of the river. And who is divided between two ways of thinking. For on one hand, if he holds him up all the time and it he holds him up too much, The child will depend in this and will never learn how to swim. But if he doesn't hold him up just at the right moment. The child is bound to swallow more water than is healthy for him. In the same way, When I teach them how to swim amid their trials. I too am divided by two ways of thinking. Because if I am always holding them up, if I hold them up too often, they will never learn how to swim by themselves. But if I don't hold them up just at the right moment, perhaps those poor children will swallow more than is healthy for them. Such is the difficult, and it is a great one.

And such is the doubleness itself, the two faces of the problem. On the one hand, they must work out their salvation for themselves. That is the rule. It allows of no exception. Otherwise it would not be men. Now I want them to be manly, to be men, and to win by themselves. Theirspur of knighthood. On the other hand, they must not swallow more than is healthy for them, having made a dive into the ingratitude of sin. Such is the mystery of man's freedom say's God, and the mystery of my government towards him and towards his freedom. If I hold him up too much, he is no longer free. And if I don't hold him up sufficiently I am endangering his salvation. Two goods in a sense almost equally precious. For salvation is of infinite price. But what kind of salvation would a salvation be that was not free? What would you call it? We want that salvation to be acquired by him, Himself, man. To be procured by himself. To comes, in a sense from him. such is the secret;Such is the mystery of man's freedom. Such is the price we set on man's freedom. Because I myself am free, says God, and I have created man in my own image and likeness.

Such is the mystery, such the secret the price of all freedom. The freedom of that creature is the most beautiful reflection in this world of the creator's freedom. That is why we are so a proper price on it. A salvation that was not free, that did not come a free man could in any wise be attractive to us. What would it amount to? What would it means? What interest would such a salvation have to offer? Beatitude of slaves a salvation of slaves, a slavish beatitude, how do you expect me to be interested in that kind of thing? Does one care to be loved by slaves? If it were only a matter of proving my might is well enough that I am the Almighty. My might is manifest enough in all matter and in all events.

My might is manifest enough in the sands of the sea and in the stars of heaven. It is not questioned, it is known, and it is manifest enough in inanimate creation. It is manifest enough in the government, in the very event that is man. But in my creation which is endued with life, says God, I wanted something better, I wanted something more. Infinitely better. Infinitely more. For I wanted that freedom. I created that very freedom. There are several degrees to my throne. When you once have known what it is being loved freely, Submission no longer has any tasted. All the prostrations in the world are not worth the beautiful upright attitude of a free man as his kneels. All the submission, all the dejection in the world neither is nor equal in value to the soaring up point, the beautiful straight soaring up of one single invocation from a love that is free.

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hard2get is just a simple girl that full of mistery,and she is strong and too hard to weigh down.Last but not the least, she has their own guts in her life.

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BEST THING THAT YOU'VE CHOOSE by Crusade

Thursday morning, I woke up in my bed at 7:30 am, I clean in every part of my body that I've wash for my self then I sat on dining room. I was thinking what am I do from school and it crash on my brain that this is the day we don't have College Algebra. I think I got home earlier because I thought that our last subject professor isn't attending for us, and my felling is decrease than I care everyday.

I was in a relax mood when I prepare and go to school. Because I belive my God is in my back, and I believe He won't let me go through evilness. I was in "jeep" at the earlier time of my class; it was 1:00 o'clock in the afternoon. In school I go to library, I read and I review the past lessons. But I was too tired to read and review I feel sleepy. After a few minutes my classmate came in library and he saw me too tired. He ask me "hey bro. did you finish our homework in College Algebra?" and I was shock on that sentence because I thought that our professor isn't attending, but he said "no! not thursday that is monday! You didn't here him? He didn't attend on monday because of his work." Then my blood pressure was too high! I think 200/120 pressure. I'm just joking. And I think to my self what am I do?

On that minute my will was turn on, and my will was fighting for my decision. It has a two choices that I'll do on that day, It's either I text my dad by using cellular phone to brought my book in school? Or I ignore that book because base on my hearth that it has a conciousness for my father. He has a lot of work in our house and my heart said "Don't you have a fear in your self, don't worry I guide you. Don't fear that thing because that is only a material, let you see your conciousness for your father that caring a heavy work on your house. And you said that God is in your back! He never let you go from evilness." Then I don't know what am I choose? And it crash again on my brain that "your mother has a 100% full support on your studies". I ask to my self that my mother spend much time, money and effort to build my study comfortable. Then I ask again to my self, what am I do?

And finnaly I choose to bring the book. I got my book and it is time of College Algebra subject, but sad to say that our professor didn't attend on that day. Its time to go home and of course I was very depressed to my decision. To the effort of my father and the worst of all I didn't trust my heart. And my heart speak to me "If you are in God don't worry to your family, God will save them from evilness because your faith is truly to God". I pray for God, and as you percent it, 50% I pray for God to happening in past hour. I said "God I'm so very sorry for the thing that I didn't expect. I'm sorry."

Finally at the end of that day, it has a moral lesson that I have learn, "In time of emergency or time that you don't realy expected the happening, ask deeply to your heart for whatis correct and specially trust God anything what happen on you, because if you are in God you are comfortable for any kind of step that you do. God is always in your back, He didn't let you go from the evilness." But if you understand deeply the two kinds that I have been choosing, it is the same correct. For example in the examination of values education, it has multiple choise that easy to understand but all of them are correct but there is one truly correct answer. At last a lesson was taken up on my self, my heart and specially God the Almighty of all, the only God in whole universe. God is love, Love is God

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Crusade is not Handsome but Simple.

Dating Complexities by Mint

Dating is a wonderful experience that an individual can experience with the opposite sex and it is the form of courtship.It give us to chance to explore each other word of different people.However we should know our limitation if we are going to date with someone.Yes it is good,but for me we should date only if we are ready for a commitment.And if you want take advantage special someone by sharing mutual respect.caring and support. Dating may be by singles events where a group of singles are brought together to take part in events for the purposes of meeting new people.Another set of date can be a Blind date where the people have not met each other.

At our age,we still dont know the meaning of dating.Maybe for some, it is just a game that is fun to play.For me, it is the window to marriage and to know each other.If you dont really like a person at first then you dont have a reason to date that person.You can know a person for some time even you dont date.love is not imposed.If you dont like a person then you can never love him/her.Maybe you will care for that person but the feeling is not love for special someone.Commitment is a sacred relationship which needs serious special feelings.When we date we should think if the person we will dating with is the person we want to have commitment.

Many teenagers nowadays engaged in premarital sex on their first date resulting to early pregnancy and early marriage.To avoid this,we can practice group dating to avoid intimate moments with our friend.In group dating we can share joy,laughter and spend time something interesting.Sometime we can know our limitation in group dating.We should know if is good influence to our. Now, i want to ask,do you date just for a game or because you are ready to commit your self to that person whicd give you the very reason why you date him/her.Start thinking know to avoid early pregnancy and early marriage.

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Mint a simple person, kind, strong to solve problem who has an ear willing to listen, and a hand willing to help.

Time Machine by yabyik

Time is precious. Time is a treasure. Time is gold. The only thing you can never gain back is time. That’s why, it must not be wasted. Everyone knows how important time is. All of us must be very careful in using it. Despite this awareness, not everyone uses his or her time properly. I admit that I am one of those people who have trashed too much opportunities and chances in life. Moreover, I know, everyone wishes to have another chance to turn back time and change the past.

What if, time machines really exist? Where are you going to use it? What part of your past, would you possibly go? If and only if, I would be given an opportunity to possess a time machine, I will not use it to go back to my childhood days. The times where I am still not aware of the painful realities in life. Where my life is out of worries, anxieties, and pain. I also do not intend to turn time back to my most successful days. The times when I felt that, I am the best, where different achievements had become a collection. There is also no turning back to the most cheerful moments of my life. The times when mom and I were still okay and nothing built between us but love. Those were also the times where my mother had become my idol, my guide, my protector, and most especially, my best friend. Even though, until now I’m still confused on how mom and I reached the point of treating each other as strangers, I won’t go back there.

If I possess a time machine, where am I going to use it? I have experienced lots of vicissitudes in my life. I’m also one of the limited persons, who luckily got the chance to taste perfection. Neither will I ever use the time machine just to change nor to maintain them. If there is only one thing in my past, where I would choose to go with the use of time machine, the only thing that I love to experience repeatedly, is the time when I had my first dance with my father. It is the most unforgettable; most cherished, and will always be the happiest memory I could have. That was the time when I realized my worth. Dad made me feel that moment that despite trials and sufferings, I could overcome them all. He taught me how to become strong on the weakest part of myself. He made me believe that nothing and no one can stop me in living on my own. He opened my eyes to let me see that living in this world is not the worst. He made me feel that I am not a mistake.

I’ve danced a lot of person before but no one can replace the way dad danced with me, because that moment, I knew, inside my heart, I was loved. No one can love me like my father did. If through this device I could get another chance to feel that love once more, I will never waste it. My longing to hold him again is breaking me into pieces. If fate could just allow me to have one more chance to be with my father, surely I will grab it. If I could just steal one final glance, one final step, and another dance with him…I would probably play an endless song, because I know, it’s the only way, I could feel his unconditional love again.

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Yabyik - A kind and sensible girl, bright in school and is always prepared for any trouble that may come. Naughty but sweet and has a cute smile. simple, moody but easy to be with. She likes to eat but she never gain weight. She spends her time at home sleeping, watching movies, and listening to music.

THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE by briannecruz03

We, people, are unexpectedly created by the God Almighty. We make mistakes and we do bad acts or things in our fellowmen. And in our lives, we can't avoid to have problems and different struggles and obstacles that make our life miserable.

I'm a kind of person who is silent, shy-type, coward and no confidence. sometimes, people around me notice that I'm a crazy one and unapproachable. What could really be the reason why am I like that? Problem. Right, it's problem. Financial problem, family problem, school problem, love problem, problem in friends, self problem...all kinds of problem! The big question is, how can I solve it? When the time my mind has been cleared, I remember a word, a word that can answer my question...HOPE.

Hope is a desire accompanied by expectations. If you have it, you have to be confidence that you will reach all the success and goals in your life. Don't let yourself be affected by the things that are happening around you. Always remember that "when there's life, there's always hope." We can lose our family, friends, loveones, and money but we can never lose...HOPE.

When there are times we failed in our tasks or jobs, we think that God left us behind sometimes. Most of the time, we just sit on a corner thinking of the best move or way to stand up. There are people who lost their strength and power to move and go on. Most of them thought that no one seemed to listen and help them. And we really feel the emptiness deep inside ourselves. We all know that confidence is important because it gives us courage to stand out. Dreams give us the will to pursue and love gives us the way of thanking the beloved God Almighty. But life itself is the only one whogives us HOPE.

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"I'm passive and silent and I'm a person who is positive about every aspect of life. I like to sing, dance and read. And the most important is that I'm a God fearing and God servant." -- briannecruz03