About a Guy by Trixie

There are just no other pair of eyes you'd die to see gazing at you...such sweet conversations crowding your mind over and over again…thoughts of you together lingering on your memory…warm hands over yours, red lips blowing your cheeks, loving arms around your waist, hugging you tight. What was the feeling? Heaven, certainly. Then there are those times when life seems so easy, everything’s light, nothing could go wrong and everything is perfectly fine. Moments that you’d wish the day would never end and you will be grateful if you’re stuck on that time forever. Remembering the laughter, reminiscing the smiles, about the minutes you’d just sit for a while looking at each other’s eyes as if you already understood what those gazes means. When during your agony, he’s the one shoulder you’d cry on, one who lend you hid ears if you have problem, one that carries your burdens and loads. He who greatly appreciate your jokes. He whose sense of humor makes your stomach hurt and your eyes teary of laughter. During those rainy days he would accompany you home, not letting even a single drop of rain fall unto your shoulders, giving you his jacket even if he’s freezing cold. Those funny faces he can make and cute grins he does when you’re not on the mood makes you realize that you shouldn’t be too serious because there’s still tomorrow and by with him the better would be the best.

Remember how he touched you are upon seeing his beaming face on your doorstep. He cares to pass by just to say I Love You and look if you’re okay. Your heart wanted to leap the day he whispered in your ear, “You’re that one single girl I spend my life with.” But you’re too speechless to reply, “you’re that one single guy I’d love and cherish for eternity.”


But those things are just memories now, taken way back yesterday, before the day he decided to settle on his own. Your smiles are put to an end and all your hopes came crashing down like the sand castle devoured by the raging waves. All that was around you once colorful but now were all turned to black and the sweet humming song on your ears is now a lyric without a tune. Your heart is filled with emptiness; your face is traces with pain. You’re laughing but you’re unhappy, you ca touch but you can’t feel, you are breathing but your not alive. You find it hard waking up every morning because it is the day you have to face him again…wearing your scripted smiles and rehearsed words telling him you’re okay now, you can stand on your own. You dreaded the thought of seeing him happy, hearing him laugh like nothing happened while you are in that corner sitting in despair, easing the pain. Each time you witness his presence there goes that desperate longing to have him close to you again, feel his warm breath again. You wanted to hug him all over again… but reality bites he’s not yours now, and he’s with someone else now. You would die to see them together, wishing you were there beside him. You wanted to scream, but there is nothing you can do. Just look him with her. ;’c


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"Me, as a person , I must say I’m true to my self. I really don’t imitate styles of others and became a copycat in many ways. Being the real me is the real deal and that’s what I’m keeping everyday. I love myself." -- Trixie